It started with October of 2009 when in a college festival, Lily the girl in blue skirt stood a little aloof in company of new found friends. She enjoyed the 'first time out of her house' feel, early winter chills, peacocks around the campus and freedom of being on her own. Right across her sat Abhi, as he was called by his friends. Abhi wore a black t-shirt, had a lean body type and twice complimented Lily for her looks. That was it. 4 days ended with Lily having clue how her life would change.
Same time in 2011, Abhi said to Lily, Lily lets be together as long as we can bear each other. There was a rush in Lily's blood it reflected on her face for sure. She turned red and dint know how to respond. It was her first time, she was a bit confused, dint know where exactly it was going but her heart smiled. She was rather in love with her computer she waited to chat with him, know him more certainly not knowing what future held for her.
Then came October of 2012, there were clouds of differences around both of them but none was ready to leave and walk alone. The came close with some hesitation. Abhi was preparing hard for exams, Lily tried to support him in which ever way she could. Love grew more and more.
October of 2013 was much brighter. Abhi agreed to change for Lily. Same date as 2011, he met Lily and said you are more important to me than my other 'to do things' in life, lets be together. The smile came back on Lily's face. This time she felt like a Queen. She thanked him and god. She could not remember any other day when someone made her feel that special. She thanked god for sending Abhi in her life. This year she turned 25 and celebrated this special day with her Abhi. Intimacy was at peak. Not knowing the happiness was momentary.
October 2014, they had split. Social pressures, differences in family mindset, they were incompatible. It was hard to believe but that was the reality. People whom they loved and respected dint wanted to see them together. They both decided to move on in life without each other of others sake. These others also meant a lot in their lives. Still somewhere they lived in a hope that things will get better. They saw a sliver lining, their energies were into each other like never before, feelings were much more intense in all ways, they both knew each other inside out. They both tried again, this time shouted their heart out but nothing worked in their favour.
October 2015, Lily received a mail from Abhi. A short note in which Abhi declared that he has 'moved on' he cherishes the memories but reality is different. Abhi has found someone more compatible and above all socially acceptable, he will be with her in a few days time forever. Lily had no clue how to respond. No response was never her way of dealing with Abhi's mail/pings/chats. She was alone, travelling for work and trying hard to deal with the storm. She responded and wished him luck as she always wanted her love to win in all situations. Lily wishes to be in touch with Abhi to see him rise in life, to share big moments if not as a lover as someone who meant something sometime :) a hidden best friend may be (Again going against all the odds as people around her suggest of something opposite).
Lily is still figuring out what 'move on' means and whether there will come a time when she will be able to feel the same. All she can think of is what October of 2016 holds for her.
Khud hi dhoondh len gaye Kinaare!
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